Early Morning Post (pun, intended)

I'm not usually up this early, but with my new job, I have to get up early sometimes and shower. (post started at 8:45 am, ended up publishing later)

Anyway, last night I had a bad dream. One that made me realize a few things about my life. It made me come to the conclusion that I don't date for a reason, and I will discuss that here.

First, I have to admit that last night before I went to bed, I saw that an ex of mine was online, and I hadn't heard from him in a while (we were still friends, but now we're not I guess) so I looked at his Facebook page to see what he was up to (instead of just talking to him), and I found out that he has a new girlfriend (why we're not friends any more). I also found out that he got kinda fat and grew some unattractive facial hair.

Anyway, the dream made me realize that every guy that I have ever dated is happier now with someone else. Other than me. Might sound a little like I'm too into myself; quite the opposite. Obviously, since it took a dream for me to realize this makes me a little unaware, sad and awkward. I feel like "the starter girlfriend."

My mom says, "It's just because you haven't met the right person yet."

At one point it was four years between boyfriends, and now I'm working on a span of two years now. Let's see how far we go till we find "the right person" like my mom says.

Mississippi is not the best place to look for someone who is intellectual and funny at the same time.

I was born in Biloxi, raised in Ocean Springs, and currently live in Columbus. My life has practically lived and breathed Mississippi (except for those two, separate, years I lived in Mobile, AL). There is a significant difference between the Coast and the rest of Mississippi.

I'm surrounded by the South, and as far as I know, there is no way out for me.

Peace,
Rachel